I moved to Knoxville roughly a month ago and it has been an enormous struggle for me. One thing that has become evident is how much I depend and rely on the people that have been close to me. I have counted on them to supply me with answers to serious faith questions, to supply me with answers to financial questions, to supply me with comfort when I'm sad, companionship when I am alone, and generally any and every thing one should expect at all. G-d has been teaching me, however, in the absence of aforementioned people that He is most reliable, most comforting, most knowledgeable, most trustworthy, most relational, and generally everything I should expect.
In this blog, I will address briefly the topic of one facebook account and the deleting of it. To be as vague as possible, I am wrestling with absolute truth and the fundamentals of my faith in Him. I do not doubt His existence. I do not doubt His son. I am arguing, however, with other areas and working my way through a great deal of frustrating materials. I am studying currently evangelism and trying to become more and more familiar with Halakha, that is "the way" or the set of rules spoken by G-d in the old testament with which to prolong life and health (physical and spiritual). While I am wrestling with my identity in Yeshua, I do not wish in any way to be a stumbling block to anyone or more importantly, to appear as a tare shaking in the wind. I will undoubtedly be a different person a week from now than I am now. I do not know when my page will be reposted, but one day you will see that I am posting statuses again. That will be the day.
For now, the best way to keep up with me is probably to read this blog. Or to email me at Adembingham@gmail.com or to aim me at GrizzlyAdem or also to call me at (315) 374 3090.
So now for the boring sorts of updates. I do not have a job, currently, that is generating income. Thus, I am very socially poor (& economically) and haven't gotten out to do too many things. However, I am completing classes now to begin a DSP job hopefully by the end of next week. DSP is similar to the health attendant work that I was performing in New York.
I will be speaking for the first time in basically my life at the end of the month, March 31st at Lost Sheep's Under The Bridge ministry. This is a sort of ragamuffin get-together that features people of a wide array of social classes. People come from all over the city to serve Knoxville's large homeless community through food, clothing, and anything else we can do. On the 31st, I will be playing some songs in an effort to uplift their spirits and then aiming to give a message of hope to people who feel like all of the opportunities have been given to someone else.
Also, I will be performing my first show in North Carolina in some 3 years. My good friend Amanda is helping to book an event for Relay For Life at UNC in Charlotte and has invited me to come out and play some songs and hopefully we'll put together a potluck. or 2. It is a very exciting thing to be going back for a visit to my hometown. Probably a lot of people don't know that I was born and raised in Charlotte. Well, now you do.
What else should I talk about here? Being a worship pastor is an exciting thing. I visited the Shomair Yisrael Messianic Congregation today and got to experience a beautiful worship service. I can see G-d's movement through out the atmosphere and it gives me hope. I can almost see Him stirring in the grass and I feel Him against my skin. He is brooding over the expanse, hovering like a storm cloud and I am anxious to feel His healing rain. I am becoming increasingly interested in the prevention of replacement theology and grow excited daily about where He is leading me.
I miss my family and my beautiful city but I am grateful for the sun and the family I meet every day. The people I live with, Jeff & Tommi, they have been such a blessing in my life. They will probably never know the incredible love they have demonstrated to me and I pray for their peace and that they be continuously blessed. Things are changing, growing- inside of me. It is a scary time, an exciting time; it is the sort of season when dead skin falls away to make room for new life. It is a season of renewal, of death and rebirth. I thank you for your patience as we continue this journey together. May your lives be blessed and your weeks be kind!
Humbly yours,
Adem
